Oh I know exactly what this is, I

told her.

If this was anymany years ago, I would

perhaps ring the bell, grab the tools, whistle

to whatever sidekick you'd like to insert here, and then

get to fucking work...measuring, scraping, tasting,

quick hurry, samples headed through the door

behind my face, but that is not now, as I

stare smiling through the third eye, my breath

swirls the pluming

rainbow framed in its window, I know

what you are

I told her.

In this universe, in the universe inside of me,

you are many things, you are the meaning, the message,

you are the muse and calming,

there is no accident to every wrinkle

on the tip of your elbow, to how the sound of your voice

fits perfectly in my ears, don't you see? this season began

as soon as you found me.

and you said you understand

only half of it, and as I spit out an

imaginary beverage ( insert digital

spray of bev in post production )

I found that

so funny...

of what

percentage?? I think Ive yet

to even see past one

half of one

percent.

But I am not

the lightning, bundled

in ribbons, I am not

Eileen and you are

her and magic,

I am not who

I was led to find.

I am not what

was brought less

than half

a years months ago.

I know exactly what

this is I told her.

How obvious you have

always been, and I love

the surprise of your arrival

I love waiting, the hoping, the

aching for the miracle.

you are here to ignite

the fuse of the rescue.

and I must say, this

is the best yet.

I can't recall the last

first dawn calling me

having lunch with me

to discuss this.

Maybe I should have stopped

to pause, perhaps notice

that nothing calls to discuss this, nothing

has made a reservation for two

to review this.

I mean c'mon, why would I

open my eyes in an ocean of clues, why would I

find anything extroardinary about

a woman who suddenly appears ( make sure to add

more pictures to facebook and find more

friends to give her

with familiar names, but not

too familiar ) raising no ripple

of alarm, why would I notice

that laughing I say I don't

think we need to bother

with time or context, let's just

never not once feel less than

perfectly comfortable revealing

absolutely everything, nothing odd at

all that you would ask, become

involved with and continue to discuss

the intimate magnificence kept private now

for than your presence near

times your presence near.

You know exactly what this is,

you are telling

and save me.