and against all reason
i would marry
both of them.

i would march
up the aisle, bristling
with bruises of ridiculous hope, laughing
at the steep and
obvious and unforgiving
cliff of tomorrow.

and when i was asked.......i
would say..
i will.
even though i cannot, i will,
even though
they would never
dare
to let me.

never mistake the willingness
to accept the bullet.
never mistake the desire
to accept anything given
from a specific and certain hand
as an act of the unwilling.
There are crazy people in heaven, and
i'm sure we all know a few.